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June 29, 2019 at 7:45 am #57529
See also: Part I Part II Part III Part IV Part V Part VI Part VII: Getting Better By Daisy . . . I am so proud of my husband for what he has achi
[See the full post at: Collateral damage — learning to live without regret: Part VII-Conclusion]
June 29, 2019 at 12:53 pm #57552
If there is one takeaway at the end of this, it is that we as offenders absolutely cannot let what (in some cases) was a mistake define who we are today. What we did was indicative of who we were at the time of the act; for those of us who have indeed bettered ourselves and redeemed ourselves to ourselves and our loved ones, we have the ability to move on with grace and dignity, to show character, and to exhibit strength in the face of what are, in some jurisdictions, hellish circumstances.
June 29, 2019 at 3:21 pm #57559
Without muting the point Daisy is trying to make, I would like to clarify the use of the word “friends” in the first paragraph.
I did not then, and do not now, have “friends”. I have a very small list of people with whom I am friendly, but that isn’t the same thing as having friends. I feel its important for the reality of my situation (and for many others’) to clarify this.
I function well in a professional setting; I’m knowledgeable, polite, and hardworking. People like me and think I’m nice–and normal. But I am damaged. While I am hopeful that in the future I may have a real friend again, I believe this damage is permanent. Try as I might to overcome it, I am always pulled back into being vigilantly cautious and untrusting.
Thank you all for letting us share our journey with you!
June 30, 2019 at 8:23 am #57608
The belief that you are damaged is just that, a belief. And what we beleive about ourselves drives all our thoughts, feelings, decisions, actions, and character, which all brings us to outcomes. I, like you, once bought into the lie that I was damaged. But real overcoming, freedom, restoration, whatever you would choose to call it must be proceeded by an adjustment of belief. Don’t let external forces determine who you are. You are the author of your life and outcomes. remember hurting people hurt other people. So if you’re damaged your prone to hurt others. But if you are recovered and restored you are able to heal others. I understand that you must put up a boundary between yourself and would be friends. But don’t put up a wall around your heart and call yourself damage. As a counselor I can tell you that what happened in the past is really in the past. It’s what you do in the here and now that counts. Labels from the past exist only in the mind. The person that you were when you did the crime, or were convicted of the crime, or accused of a crime, no longer exists. We are a combination of our experiences. I’m a psychodynamic point of view we are the outcome of an enormity of input and actions. We are not defined by a singular event. No external force can legitimately cause you to be damaged if you don’t want to be. This goes for victims of sexual violence as well. as long as you are considering yourself damage, or as long as they are considering themselves victims, you will never really have full authorship of your life. Being a victim of circumstances or other people gives a piece of someone else’s control. It is up to you to complete the job that you so masterfully started and take back control over who you are. Charlie
June 30, 2019 at 10:55 am #57613
Thank you! I will try to actively process your advice.
June 29, 2019 at 3:21 pm #57561
Ernest B Tucker
I consider myself blessed as I am well over 65 and retired and not forced to deal with so many issues that the younger people are faced with. Your disclosure gives me hope. The efforts of the members of this group are so greatly appreciated.
But I must think back to the days when I was a patriot. Maybe I still am as I love what this country used to be before our senators and representatives ceased to be so and became “Law Makers. ”
With each of these draconian indefensible laws that are cratered we lose another freedom.
The registry is the most destructive of these unjustified laws.
Now with Tennessee’s recent decision it is like the gates of Hell have opened.
I want to express my thanks to all of you, both advocates and registrants. We on the registry and on supervised release have our hands tied. It is only through forums such as this that we can be heard and feel free to express our selves and obtain a sense of hope.
I used to light my flag 24/7 to show my pride and patriotism. Now I can’t even go to a public display for the celebration of Independence Day. I can’t go outside of my house because of the children on the street celebrating. I want to quote a line from an iconic movie from a earlier time which was adapted from a very famous work of prose.
“We will not go quietly into the night! We will not go without a fight!”
To win this war, we must win the battles. We must change the laws that these statutes are based upon. But how does one eat an elephant? One bite at a time.
The courant laws that we are subject to are indefensible as contrary to popular belief. if you are indicted, you are considered guilty by the court and must prove your innocence. This is exactly what the public defender told me as I fought my case. One day I would like the freedom to tell my story in its entirety. But not now.
May God love and keep each and every one of you.
June 29, 2019 at 7:22 pm #57575
I appreciate you taking the time to put into words each step of this process. I do feel you are slightly more enlightened because your husband is no longer on the Registry. That in itself is a little twinkle of relief.
But as a parent, and older, I see no hope for our son. He’s a very likable person. Great personality, attractive and avid outdoorsman. But it is a lonely walk. It’s lonely as a parent, too. In some ways more so. If people learn to know him, they truly like him and know they can depend on him. But otherwise, they turn and run away. When we moved a few years ago, people would be friendly until they did their usual neighborhood watch “search”. And once again we are all alone.
We are presently in the middle of a lawsuit fighting for his freedom….
But even our attorney says the laws will never change because lawmakers don’t care and they don’t want it on their record to side against this.
It’s been 16 long, lonely years. And I’m sorry I don’t see it ever changing.
June 30, 2019 at 9:43 am #57609
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It takes a very brave and confident person to share their story. I pray for each and every person on the registry. I can’t do much more than doing that and donating a small amount every month but I feel like it is something. I wish you and your husband all the best and may you continue to thrive.
June 29, 2019 at 9:59 pm #57590
Very encouraging. I own my own business and and a freelancer at the same time. Between these two things I have been able to firewall my work. This story makes me want to focus even harder to be successful, thank you…
June 29, 2019 at 10:00 pm #57591
I can relate in many ways. Met my husband in 2013…married for two years. Right now he’s being held in jail (and we are fighting).
This is our third time being apart…
Still I am here and stand beside him. Why? Because he WAS a sex offender and is the best man I could ask for. If it wasn’t that he had the burden of his past and probation, many woman would want him, and I am sure he would have found someone better than me. So, from that perspective it is my fortune that I can look beyond his past.
But I am bold and stand behind him, share with certain people at work my husbands past and take careful steps in educating people. I find more people who are understanding and open to learn and less opinionated than one would think. Many agree when they hear about the reality and restrictions etc, that it’s out of control.
Up to this day nobody turned away from me or gave me a hard time.
I am being encouraged and guided to move up within my job!
Stand behind your partner or family member!
June 30, 2019 at 1:44 am #57594
Thank you very much for sharing your story. We are blessed to have a wonderful church who helps sex offenders by having Conquer and Seven Pillar groups meeting to overcome sexual addictions. The men learn to trust their groups and develop true friendships while they deal with serious problems and how to overcome them. I am thankful my husband now has friends who know him and care about him. Although it is hard and sad at times to endure the punishment of the registry, we have hope that some day the population will understand the truth of the damage the registry causes and laws will be changed.
I truly believe the public would agree with us that in my husband’s case of wearing shorts without underwear and visually offending two adult women ( no minors ever offended) 20 years punishment is unjust! But, with no money to go to court and fight, we just have to suffer the registry punishments till the time is up. Our question is would we be free then to take our RV and visit other states without their registry punishments affecting us? Now we know of states that if you visit they put you on their registry and do not remove you!
June 30, 2019 at 9:51 am #57611
Thank you Daisy for writing this story. We are all in this together, me as a family member. I wrote a book because when I first went into the courtroom it was not at all what I would have thought it should have been. So I started to take notes and I wrote it all down. I talked daily to who is now labeled a SVP. I wrote the true story down and that is what I wrote in my book. I really want to hear more of the stories. I know how hard it is for a SO to find a job and housing. My door was opened wide and it has been wonderful to have him here. He is no longer my grandson, he is more like my son in my heart. I love him so much!
June 30, 2019 at 12:24 pm #57628
The Criminalized Man
Alan, if I knew you in face-to-face life I’d be honored to be known as your friend.
June 30, 2019 at 8:35 pm #57634
Very good story about being a sex offenders wife, my wife has stood by me though my ordeal,after this allegation came out about me molesting my step granddaughter I told my wife to go and file for a divorce which she said absolutely not she stay through my being arrested,during,my trial and my prison sentence which was 20 years to serve and then another 20 probation keep in mind this was a he say she say case with no physical evidence.
I was also placed on the registry which I did not let it affect me in anyway shape or form,my attitude is if someone says something to me about being in the registry I go right at them and explain what has happened to me and I found that more honest I was with people the more respect I got even from probation officers because they are so used to people saying they are innocent but took a plea bargin,I don,t have a lot of money to challenge these laws and I also asked the aclu for help to no avail.So I guess the motel of the story is you have to be yourself and don’t let anyone push you around if they do not like the idear of you standing behind your husband then shame on them someday we will be able to repeal the so called sorna and the rest of these idiotic laws so keep your chin up and walk talk again very good and tragic story.
July 1, 2019 at 8:52 am #57644
While I have to admit I had to go back and read some of the details to this ordeal and the pitfalls that this couple shared they stuck together thick and thin. Now thats standing by your man or loved one.
While I’m somewhat like Ernest up their and going into my senior years I can see the change in America and government in a whole lot of ways. What is independance day today. America started off with Christian principals and the ten commandments and thats a done deal.
Today many are still in bondage in a lot of this new age sex registry. Is this internet used as a form of ensnaring/entrapment, if one wants to call it or man’s way to combat crime in this mind over matter deceptive chrade. One wonders who’s protecting who or who gets the burden. Where is the sword of justice or the truth of justice. Who is stealing justice or instilling injustice? Yes in a lot of this sex registry a lot more needs to be addressed.
If a man thinkest? I am sure others like to try and out think with logic. Is this a form of family feud to get along in a humanitian way. Is their any love thy neighbor today or a nobody tells me what to do authority. One wonders who wields the sword today, or is it eat or be eaten by a lot of this political game which one investigator has told me its all part of the game.
Life is not a game. While downloading is one factor of this sex registry, the hardships and sufferings are another. So were do facts and truth collide. Somethings wrong and thats why due process is so important. Getting rid of this registry and its cracks and crumbling form is necesssary in a lot of ways. The registry is without warning and without warning is a form of greedy covetousness. and being rational is good if we rationalize with true understanding and wisdom.