I hear you Erika. Yes, in becoming a RSO one steps thru the looking glass. I’m fortunate to have a place to live, a job, a few friends, hobbies….but yeah, nobody understands how humiliating/frightening/unreal this all is unless it happens to them. I was set up in a sex sting and am left with nothing but fear and loathing for this system. Really…am i a monster…? Of course not. This is all just a figment of the imagination.
I try very hard to live a good life and just want to get on with life. Sometimes i pull it off. easy for me to say- i’m not living in a tent. But it COULD happen. All of us are just a few events away from ending up like Jerry.