Deliliah, it just is what it is. I live everyday feeling guilty over my offence of 26 yrs ago. I’m an upright, honest but over critical of myself type. I believe with all my heart if I had the guts to match my guilt I wouldn’t be around to kick but alas..i don’t. I love to work but can’t hold employment, I love being part of a family yet without work friends and family ain’t around long. TO ANYONE who thinks this sounds defeatist believe me, if you met me you wouldn’t know I was so depressed-i show a good game.